In anticipation...

The Summer Before the Dark - One of the earliest novels (1973) by Doris Lessing and some say her best. Just got hold of it and dying to read it. But I have a half-baked report which I can't leave mid-way! So, saving it for the train journey next week! Hope it will not disappoint me!

I don't know if am really enjoying my work - but am doing it diligently, at least to meet the deadline decently. Well, I do enjoy certain aspects of it... sometimes!! But am afraid if it is worth all the hardwork and toil. Sometimes I feel, I'd rather take a walk till the lakeside and click some pictures or check out some boring kids playing the same old games! Anyways, work gives you a sense of being useful, I tell myself - but I am yet to find out for whom!

If I were not here (staring at my report) I'd have been doing ... doing what?!! I believe, there's nothing like being at the wrong place at the wrong time. We all are here in the right place, at the right time, with the right people - after all, who am I to post arrogant questions regarding our space and time and existence?!!

--Virtually Yours

Am I the only one?

We bloggers are amazing! We continue posting - though we know that half the posts will fade into this virtual oblivion without anyone have read or seen it even once!

But isn't that the same about life as well? One may not always have an audience - but that is no less motivation to continue living!

--Virtually Yours

Take Charge of My Life!

Have you heard the Air Supply Song "Just when I thought I was over you"? Sometimes life is like that. It plays the same old trick on you and catches you unaware just when you think you've finally got over everything. At least I go through this phase quite often - making the same mistakes, hurting the same ones who love and swearing all over again that this is THE last time! Yeah, that's life! But I know, that's no excuse! I'm learning... though very slowly.

I guess I've mellowed down over the years - rather tamed down, I'd say! I no more have strong feelings about those radical views I held. Day by day I'm also realizing that it is my LORD's strength that leads me on - not my confidence, not my merits, not my support systems. I'm also delighting in the serene peace that canopies me when I trust HIM with my life. I've learnt the hard way that I do not have the wisdom, nor the skill, to unfold my life; HE can do it so artistically, so methodically, and so very well.

This Sunday heard about NOT settling with the 'Ishmaels' in life, like Abraham tended to do initially, rather than waiting for the 'Isaac' to come. I had compromised too - with situations, people, values, standards, behaviour, morals... All those compromises had left behind Ishmaels! But the Almighty was so gracious, so mindful and never held back the promised Isaac! Do I have words to describe that perfect work of love and grace!

Yes! The bottom line is - the Battle belongs to the Lord!

-Virtually Yours